The Age of Compromise

The Age of Compromise - She Is So Right

In hopes and pursuits of getting a better job, and living a better life, I’ve realized that I’m going to need to make some compromises within myself, and lay down my “rebel arms”.

I’ll probably have to go through lots of interviews and the like, and from what I understand, a lot of companies will do a vague search online to look into what kind of people they are hiring…

As much as I detest conformity and iron fisted brainwashing, I’m willing to make some sacrifices that I never thought I would…

I’m willing to compromise my old values in the hopes of expanding my horizons.

As much as I love a good headstand on a D.A.R.E. Van, I think it’s best that I shield that from the general public… I look at it kind of like is a liquor cabinet…  if you keep it out of plain sight, people don’t know about it being something you do on your own time.

As much fun as I have had in the past being coo-ed by women and despised by haters over my hair, and my general bad-ass attitude,  I am moving in a new direction with my efforts and energies.  I’ve tapped all these old wells dry a long time ago…

I have had these thoughts many times before… such as when I was turning 24, I said to myself, “If I don’t have my dream job by the time I’m 25, I’ll bite the bullet and cut my hair.”

I just turned 27 last week.

Maybe I’m barking up the wrong tree…

Maybe I’m making the best decision in my life…

It’s hard for me to let go of these old “Rebel-like” values… but my grip is weakening, and these ideas are founded on such a volatile and unstable foundation to begin with…

I used to think that people didn’t much care about what you did on your own time when they would consider you for employment…  Until I got fired from a job right on the spot during training, after they looked into my police record from over 4 years ago and found the only charge I had, that I PAID BIG ASS FINES TO HAVE “HIDDEN” FROM PUBLIC RECORD”….  that I never even went to jail over…

I’m not sure what it would take to fire me over some MySpace antics, but either way, the world we live in today has changed. Things that I once thought were private and privileged information are now used against us at the whim of those with enough power and influence to discover information they can use to judge you.


I’m going to join the masses of setting my MySpace profile to private…  I don’t like it… I think it undermines the Constitution… and freedom of speech… and all that jazz…  but once again, I fall back to the Serenity Prayer that mom burned into my brain years ago.

“God, Grant me the Serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
The Courage
to Change the Things I Can
And The Wisdom
To know the difference.”

I still believe that I can change the world… but I’ve been selfish in the past.  I’ve fought “The Man” with my own values and agenda at the helm, when I should really broaden my perspective, and try to see that there are far more worthy causes to expel my energy on in the world than whether or not Bob the asshole Human Resources Manager of XYZ Tech Corporation had his mail order bride from Russia fall to the Temptations of a Long Haired Pimp Daddy with drive and ambition and an unrelenting passion for life (much like myself), and now has a biased against certain personalities and appearances.

A good friend of mine tells me all the time about how her mother told her something that she lives by everyday”

“If you continue to do what you have ALWAYS done, You will GET what you have always GOT.”

She is so right…

(Thanks Derek and mom)

I now realize that, for me:

This is The Age of Compromise.

Big changes are afoot my friends.  In letting go of myself, I’ve allowed for new influences and experiences to fulfill me.  I look forward to these new chapter of life…

It’s been a long time coming.


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