I sometimes dream of things to come true
She hasn’t even told me what I already know
I’m on all the shit list’s
I can put on quite a big show
They all want me; I don’t want them at all
Can’t have the one I want, ‘cuz I’ve been with you all
Irony always seems to shit in my face
The mirror, it looks back at me in shame and disgrace
You can’t know me
refusing to ever let you in my head
I know you could participate
in ressurrecting my fate
wish you could see what it is that I’m wanting from you
Only if you had eyes to it’s will, could you see
I yearn for something no longer; I no longer ask why
Too many piecies off the board I call love; Now I long to die
I don’t need it
But it seems to need me
Won’t be what you want
becauce I’m free
can’t decide whether I like it or not
you think I’m over you
It sounds like something you might say
Maybe I am; but only because you want it that way
Come on and bring it on
Break me like you always do
Quit making it so easy for me
The only one I have faith left in is you
Snap me like the twig that I am
Can seem so cruel, yet comforting
Shepard of me; a mere lamb
Lose without a battle, I’ll be damned
Do you regret it
Do you wish for a change
Or do you loathe it
Do your memories seem re-arranged
Maybe because of all my stupid shit
If I surrendered, whom would I endow
Has it changed from then to now
probably has, but I can’t figure how
I’m all alone
No one is left for me
Not even you, oh love of my life
This here is the end of my quest
Can’t stand thinking about you
can’t understand why I can’t live without you
I’m scared to think what I’d do
Just to forget about you
I can’t get you out of my mind
Did you do this to me
Or this some obsession of mine
Why do I even think about it
Could you love me or just lust as you see me
I’ve done some pretty fucked up shit
It’s probably a waste of time
I’ve found your soul and I think I liked it
Beware of what you want
Careful what you wish for
Can’t be satisfied with what I want
because I always want more
will my eyes grow to be stronger than me?
Will He take my special powers
The powers I shred your soul open with, to see
the pain you’ve felt: the pain you release on me
I am strong
Stronger the He
we all are; we all can
When we what to be
My life is filled with choices
Turn it up so I can’t hear the voices
They like to antagonize me
with their evil noises
I’m already dead
They killed me long, long ago
Left me with nothing
But bittersweet memories and a broken bed
How does it work
or does it work at all
do I forget it because I regret it?
Or should I keep it; treat them all like a Fucking china doll!
Fixing me
It’s like killing you
Telling my mind to change
Instructing it to do
exactly what I want it to
Make me heal
Make the pain and sorrow go away
‘Cuz I can’t stand how I feel today
Begining to remeber
starting to recall
The way it was
back last fall
Happiness from then
returning to it now
Letting go of all the pain
Feels almost refreshing; being insane
Held you in my arms
in a dream I had last night
So perfect there
God your such a gorgeous site
Just tell me what to do
‘cuz I don’t know
I just want to squeeze you
and never let go
Doubts
from the fires of distrust
hiding gets old
Choking on the dust
Stirred by you
sweeping me off my feet
Whats holding me back
love is; being to an attack
Stuff it down
stuff it away
Saving it all
for another day
Anger on a broken leash
Mind twisting demolitions
Why won’t you release
your paranoid suspicions
Love is strong
I’ll just keep telling myself that
It’s what I’ve thought all along
Won’t even listen to the new song
Staring right through the back of my innocence
Glaring down at my compassion
Slaughtering my point of view
that I’ve had for so long; or am I wrong?
‘Till I fall apart
it cannot be forgotten
Don’t know how to start
After all, I’m not that smart
Peace comes from within
I found it in my darkest hour
Same bullshit, with a lovely twist
I hate taking Power
Aye me
the only words I can seem to utter
Still doesn’t understand
I have to wonder; Did I stutter
Thinks they know what Love is
Refuse the guilt of responsibilty
Being everything I ever dreamed
Why does she have to do this to me
I have no doubt
the love I’ve been without
Can’t break me
You can never burn my heart out
I will never give up
I’ll never play the games you do
I will not sacrifice myself
just to be miserable, with you
Beautiful loss
Nothing else to call this
Granted wishes at a high cost
A sin gentle as a kiss
Pain before and the sorrow after
Alone, yet tied down
Echoing lonely laughter
As for denial; I am the master
I can feel it all
Emptiness is all I see
I wish my anger
would just let me be
How can I return
How can I get away
How much have I really learned
Why can’t I find what it is I’m trying to say
Gonna go away
getting the fuck out
Gotta leave your pain
hearing nothing but screams and shouts
Run faster than it ever will
but she stalks you still
For Pain she is a lady
how I pray that He will save me
Mutated thoughts
of my depression
Hole in my mind
Beyond Obsession
Even late for my very own confession
scar me by leaving a gaping incision
“Excuse et’ moi!”
I forgot you needed permission
Got it for you
Because of us
To you from me
Swirling thoughts littered with lust
All these memories
With nothing to gain
Unbelievable accusations
stirring my raging pain
I am your worst nightmare
I am true love
I’ll be there
because I care
I’ll relieve your pain
I’ll take away your doubts
You have nothing to fear
Not while I’m here
I’m so perfect
I’ve been this way for so long
I love everyone
and I can do no wrong
I never meant to hurt anybody
Knowing that I’ve lied once or twice
Waiting blindly for direction
hope my eyes open when I roll the dice
Out of my mind
get it out of my head
can’t think for another second
can’t remember what was said
Called the king of hearts
Haven’t forgotten about you yet
showing off the lovely scars
How disappointing can it get?
Who keeps reinventing me
Why can they just let me be
How fucking beautifull
I’m such a fucking fool
What possesses binding
Emptiness is what I’m finding
Pay no attention
Ask why my teeth are grinding
Raging to apologize
before the moment dies
Vomiting your words
Because you deny your lies
Can’t think about anything
except wrong and right
Revenge is my King
Damn me for being so fucking impolite
Consistant spactication
Delightfull aquirations
Orgasmic damnation
Change the stereo station
Love once reigned
Lust and Power won the throne
Trust replaced with Pain
The wish for the insane unknown
Bewitching Bitchiness
A Love; lacking lucridity
Tormented by my own bonding word
Oh, the things I’ve heard
Confusion sets in
when it gets a little sticky
Speaks bad of everything
and she’s so fucking picky
Stomach craving stability
Her mouth can always destroy me
I can’t stand the hurting
my eyes won’t quit burning
I cant stand her smart ass
God why can’t I last
I hope she makes it fast
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